- Strawberry Banana Pie: -To Live For!! and Pasta primavera. Best Raw Dish So Far!
Today I look back at the times that I have been near to my goal weight and somewhere before the finish line I would stop and make a complete detour. When I was a child I was very skinny and I remember I didnt like to eat so my mom would force me to eat. When I was sick as a child with fever etc I wouldnt eat so i was enticed with a soda and cake. She was just doing what good mothers do and I loved it. I developed an unhealthy relationship with food but never had a weight problem, I could eat as much as i wanted but never really gained weight. Of course 14 years ago after I had my second child something changed and I started piling on the weight. Years before that though I went through a very stressful time and started to use food to deal with my emotions. I used food to soothe a lot of emotions ,I dont really think I was successful at that even.So this morning I asked myself “what are you afraid of’ “? I asked God to allow me to feel those raw emotions no matter how difficult they were. One of those raw emotions that surfaced were me as a little girl stuttering and being made fun of. I feel it in the pit of my stomach and I welcomed it. It is still painful but I can handle it. I promise to deal with my emotions honestly day by day no matter how difficult they are . I am ready to break that glass.
